PART 3
My aunt Carol — the forwarded-prayers one — wrote: “Family is everything, let’s all calm down.” I stared at it for a long time. Family is everything. That was exactly the problem. It was everything, and mine had been counted as less than everything for three years while I paid for the privilege.
My mother finally texted, also private: “Your father is very upset. He says you humiliated him in front of everyone.”
I wrote back: “He humiliated himself in front of Lily. I just added witnesses.”
Then I turned my phone face-down on the counter and went to check on my daughter.
She was still asleep, glitter on her cheek, one arm thrown over the stuffed rabbit with the missing ear. On her nightstand sat the still-wrapped gift — from Danny’s kids, ironically, the only one that had arrived on time. I sat on the edge of her bed and did the thing I had been avoiding for three years: the math.
$550. Every Friday. For three years. $85,800.
Eighty-five thousand, eight hundred dollars. I said it out loud in the dark and it sounded like someone else’s life. That was a down payment on a house. That was Lily’s college fund, sitting in my brother’s backyard as a new deck I had seen in his Fourth of July photos. That was the emergency fund we never had when our car broke down last winter and my father texted “not our problem” while Marcus took the bus before dawn for a full week, his hands still cracked from the warehouse.
Established. That was the word he used. Eighty-five thousand dollars of established.
I thought about the duct tape inside Lily’s sneakers. I thought about my husband touching the bank statement with a bandaged finger, asking for one month — just one — and me saying “they need it” like a prayer I no longer believed in.
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